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Friday, August 05, 2005

i use to tot
he will nv b replace..
but i was wrong till
last mon - 010805
i got to know that i was wrong
entirely wrong..

for the past few days,
i reflect my tots
there are certain things..
he cant do for me..
while the other guy
who is willing to wait for me
can do it for me..
i wondered,
am i so selfish
that i always think abt that guy
who doesnt even care
abt my feelings towards him
and completely forgotten the guy right beside
who actually stood by me
whenever i am sad..
whenever that person made me cry..
i am so blinded by that guy's love
that i hardly notice abt the guy
who is waiting for me
he see me suffer
a pain that that inked on him
despite it is an indirect attack..

friends gave mi advices
and encouragement..
which i think really me woke up..
why am i so blinded by his love
when he appriciated..
where is he when i m in sorrow..
where is he when i really need him
when i really need his support
did he ever appear right beside me
and gave me a pat on the shoudler
and wish good luck or sumtink?

when 2 parties were quarrelling..
will u ever stand by me..
and protect me as a guy shld do..
maybe i dun even wish for u to be standing with me..
or maybe b neutral
tried to pull the 2 parties together..
have u ever do that..
NO U DIDN..
but the guy hu is waiting for me..
he will either stand by me
or be the advisor
to bring the 2 parties together..
dependin on the situation..

my friends-
they used to support me
of achieving my dreams
with u..
but in shortly few months
everything change
they support the guy
rather than u
despite they only koe him this yr
have u ever imagine..
they knew u since they koe me..
the relation will so strong-bonded
for the past few months
yet they rather choose a stranger than u..
what went wrong..
no body knew..
no body bother to ask
maybe only me, u and them have the ans..

u bring me to heaven
n pushed me down..
this is ur decision
i can do nth ...
i m hurt..

since the day i made up my mind
of becoming the new-me
i koe i shldn shed any more tears for u..

went to sch gym after sch
with mich, sirat, hanafi, vic n jan..
did the cycle thingy
n i m aching now!
omg~!

they had rehearsal jus now
popped by..
didn notice that papaya was there..
explosion..when i saw him..
no one he was there!
wtf!
nvm..
new me dun even care abt papaya..
who cares..

ard 7+
go cwp with mich
to find her D&T stuff
ended up buying things...
hais..

LOVE is such complicated thing
only when u r in love..
u will koe how simple it actually is...

a chance is given...
a promise is made..
-010805*

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